Dark Night of the Soul

by R.J.
(MO,USA)

I am a 35 year old single mother. I live with my 9 year old daughter. Her father is a functioning heroin addict that I choose not to have active in her life. I am the oldest of my brother M. who is 29. We were close as kids. We don't really have a relationship. We're glad to see each other when we do. We have different fathers. His father has played an active role in my life since he dated my mother when I was 4. All my parents are living and I love them very much. I was raised by a narcissistic mother. I was never taken seriously and my feelings were often discounted by most leaving me with no direction and confidence in my adult life.

I cannot imagine anything that is working for me right now. There are many things I should be thankful for. I have had a steady job in the last 4 1/2 years and have a healthy family. I am constantly in emotional pain. Every attempt to increase finances or finish college meets an unusually dead end. I've been driving my step dad’s car for the last 4 years. My love life is continuously disastrous whenever I choose to give it a try. I am lonely and unfulfilled.

Because of my financial situation my daughter and I are missing out on a lot of things in my life. I have no social life. All I do is watch television. I am mentally and spiritually exhausted. I look at married and successful people with sadness wondering what am I doing or have not done to be able to achieve any those things especially when I see others that have done nothing, are evil, or don't appreciate what they have. I had so much hope for my life. Now I'm just getting older.

My difficulties are affecting me mentally. Being a mother is becoming harder. My finances have been affected. I have been driving with the low fuel light on in my vehicle since July because that's all I've had. I've had problems with depression, social anxiety, and PTSD for the last 12 years from relationship abuse from my cousin & best friend which continued from the lovers I've taken on over the years. I am happy to say I no longer associate with that person anymore. When I thought things had gotten better. I reunited with a friend and tried romance. It ended abruptly and I was devastated. Then my past issues and hurt all begin to bubble to the surface. I have been debilitated. This has been a very dark time. I've been searching everywhere for answers and a solution. From June to Sept, I cried everyday. I feel sad, guilty, vengeful, lost, numb, and tired.


I pray. I have gone to church. I've nearly bankrupted myself on psychics and clearings. I've done fire ceremonies. I prayed to St. Michael to serve the chords. Eat healthier. Take meds from the psychiatrist. Research schools to finish college. I've read countless books and articles on spirituality and self improvement. I've sought advice from loved ones who are now tired of me.

I will do what it takes. I cannot live like this anymore. I need on going guidance. I can't hear GOD. I know he's there but I can't hear him. I'm so tired of going round and round.

I would like to no longer hurt or obsess over my last relationship which ended over 3 months ago and only lasted 4 months. I am looking for peace of mind & success. My mind is open to achieving it. I am looking not to make the same mistakes over and over again. I would like improvement in the area of my finances. I want to be sure of myself enough to make goals and achieve them.

When will the pain of my last relationship go away? How can I make positive things manifest in my life. I want to prosper in mentally, physically, emotionally, financially and in love instead of constantly meeting up with dark manifestations of myself.

And the psychic guides answered: The more you are ask not to think of the pink elephant the more you do. This is what is happening with everything in your life, change your focus and you change your life and that means to choose to see life from a different vantage point. Work on forgiving yourself for holding on to that pass relationship. Money problems are about people problems so create a better relationship with others. Allow yourself to meet people that will inspire you to do better, people who hold to there word and have integrity.

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